Lie

My life lives of lies
as it's a on big lie itself
it's not luck to be living
since I don't want to live

I wear red not to stain
I stealth others not to scare
I avoid all good and happy
it's not for me anyway

I pull my hand up
to try reach something high
but I put it down
since what I wanted is a lie

I'm attacked with words
i'm attacked with force
and no way I can dodge it
since i'm always lost

I can't see the reasons
of why i'm even here
all I am living off
is cries, pain and fear